There's an artist problem. There is an attitude problem, and there is a problem that you seem to have with standing up.
What the fuck? I thought you were an artist? Did you forget that film was art? Cause it seems like when you create anything it’s bland and boring and overall safe.
You seem to want to just make videos that are replications of everything else that all your favorites seem to do.
Maybe instead of looking up to them you should look at your heros like Gnarly Bay, Shane Hurlbut, Kevin Smith, David Fincher, and Zach Snyder and say "Fuck you AND Your Style".
No you don’t want to do that? Ok, then just keep making more poor excuses of replications of their work, the work you LOVE. You did forget that film was art, or at least you stopped treating it like art.
You want to look up to an artist? You want to beg, borrow, steal? They say stealing is how the best art is made, and you believe them?
You want to make some footage that is a happy medium between you and someone you respect?
You don’t respect them, because you don’t know them, you know the way they intemperate a script that you never read.
You respect the way they write, the way the light, the way they shoot and the way they edit.
That isn’t them, it’s what they do. They didn’t forget that film was art, but you did.
I am not what and how i light, the way i light is not a representation of me, it’s a representation of the way i intemperate the shit i write.
The resistance to your art can fuck off, and there's nothin good to say about it.
That’s your Hitler, the thing that tells you, "you need to make the superior film by combining the shit thats already out there that you think is all the best".
Kill that mother fucker. Cut off his head and drop it on your desk so you remember everything that is not you.
When it’s eyes look at you, tell it to fuck off, or don’t even give it the time of day.
It's a reminder of everything that distracted you from your art. It’s everything that stopped you from starting.
Can't you just make one fucking thing that isn’t inspired by something else?
Can't you just make one damn film that doesn’t nod to another artist?
Stop pretending. Stop thinking you can’t. You’re sitting there thinking that what they do is the shit, and you’re just stagnant thinking that while they’re onto the next thing.
You can write, you can shoot, pull focus, balance an image, set a c-stand, you can grip, gaff, direct, tell an actor to get HERE NOW, you see when an actress' tears are real and when they’re bullshit, you can light a scene from home depot OR from a thrift store, you can interview the fuck out of anyone, you can edit, you can produce, you can secure a location, and build a following.
So get off your ass and get to work, or don’t.
But understand that if you don’t now, you might never. You’ll remain a shitty student that never does, and you probably won’t ever even teach.
We’re too busy watching everything else that we don’t look inside to figure out what is real, and thats why so much shit out there is as fake as a West Burrow christian.
The only hate I endorse more than the hate of half ass art is the hate of a half assed life.
You don’t want to make a film because it’s not funded, but don’t you know that even Tarantino had to make his first film on his own?
What makes you so fucking special? What you need to pay off your debt and student loans? GOOD.
One day you will miss these times where you felt like you had something real to say.
So get out and fucking say something that is different and real. Fuck the same old heros journey, and don’t forget that your film is art.